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Far from timid • Caveat Lector

gods after five Part 2: after five- a poem

gods after five Part 2: after five- a poem

after five wrecks me

saturday and sunday are worse

the night steals our romance, it always

comes back with the sun

good morning texts

afternoon sexts

facetime dates but

it's been a long day and now I've

come home alone, i open the fridge

take a sip of Jack

it's five now, not a single missed call

i set my phone on the counter, i throw the bottle back

kick my shoes off as i walk down the hall

turn the shower on, i let it run

climb in, let the tears fall

i collapse to my knees, hold my breath until

it feels like i'm drowning, the water's cold

i step out, stare at myself in the mirror

let loneliness dry on my skin

stand at my bedroom door, stare at the bed

and when my legs grow tired

i walk over, sit on the edge

no more adderall, no more vicodin

i close my eyes and

picture you with her

gather the sheets in my hands and when

it's too much i go to the couch

gather myself in the fetal position

in all the places you've been

after five wrecks me

saturday and sunday are worse

the night steals our romance, it always

comes back with the sun

i have my phone again

i've memorized the pictures, the words

on your timeline

thumb through to feel close to you

she's close to you, i can tell by her page

grow angry because she's pretty

wonder if it would be me if things were different

if we traded places

it's four now.

i haven't slept

tired of wondering if you face her when you're in bed

there's nothing on tv

so i imagine my heart breaking

i picture her waking,

up, placing her hand on your chest

you smile easily, kiss her forehead

she presses into you and

my phone vibrates

after five wrecks me

saturday and sunday are worse

the night steals our romance, it always

comes back with the sun

good morning, beautiful.

it's 8:00am.

gods after five part 3: trinity - a poem

gods after five part 3: trinity - a poem

gods after five Part 1: gods - a poem

gods after five Part 1: gods - a poem