At one point in time, I didn't think I would make it past the age of 18. Not because of what I heard in the streets but what I had heard from the religious talking heads who told me that the world would soon be ending. God as we know it would come back to the trumpets horn and the ground would swell and shake and devour mankind to an orchestra of fire. I believed that one day I would wake up and my mother wouldn't be here caught up in the glorious rapture that the Pastor would preach about and I would be alone because I didn't have that same strong faith that she had. At that time, at a very impressionable age, I was scared into the fear of the unknown. As the world is seeming to be turning on its side again we are revisiting the idea of a god once more.
It's safe to say that we have survived many a last call into the great beyond. Whatever that may entail the nature of what lies in wait for use beyond the grave still remains a mystery. For a lot of us who grew up in a religious home, we were taught to ignore the signs of man's downfall and recognize this as the world's submission to the devils' will. Everything good or bad was accountable only to the will of invisible forces in nature pushing and pulling against us in a chess match for our souls. We see this in movies and television as little imps and angels sitting on our shoulders metaphorically displaying our conscience. Will we follow the presumably safe choice donned in all white or will we bathe ourselves in the nature of the little devil in red? Our minds have been assaulted by signs of earthquakes, war, hurricanes, and cases of stigmata. We look for a god in oil stains and painted windows. Yet, we can never recognize god within ourselves. The power to create and shape the world around us and how we as humans are years apart from this utopia we strive to create. We have the will to create change and peace and harmony. WE have the will to mend old ties and let go of petty quarrels. God in any form is written through the eyes of men and THAT's why God seems so flawed. We are looking at ourselves when we try to digest or even fathom an all seeing all knowing deity because we ourselves will never know enough. We put limitations on belief because we ourselves are limited. This is not me trying to get you to believe that a god exists, this is me trying to get you to believe in the power of yourself.
When I daydream I often believe that If I am heard, If I am given a chance to speak to the world, that I am powerful enough to change it. There is a reason why people believe in superheroes, that one person can be the voice of reason or an instrument of change. How many times have you heard someone say "it's fine, I'll do it myself"? We don't pity those who choose to shoulder the load, we are often in awe of someones ability to do so where we can't. However, for some of us, the concept of a god is an issue. I laugh because the same thing we cannot see, we already have done. We have taken the road less traveled against all odds with our enemies at our backs, taking on the world as it comes because to someone our journey matters. God is a manifestation of man's idea to conquer the world and look after it but it is just as flawed as we are and that's why we reject it.
We reject our connections with each other, nature, the sun, moon, and the stars. We only care about the state of the planet when it's either too hot or too cold. What scientists have said about the conditions of our planet the ancient ancestors already knew. That we are all connected as one, or yet we should be, but the fight for power is every man woman boy and girl for themselves.