Needles For Free: A Bi-Polar Manic Episode
The plot keeps on thickening. EYE met with My ‘’doctor’’ today. he tried to tell me that EYE’ve been delusional and hallucinating. EYE kno this trick. make me feel like EYE AM nuts. It’s not gonna work. The signs and clues are too evident. Nevertheless, though EYE was wary of doing so, EYE let him inject me with a supposed risperdal shot. They’re good. They know EYE despise needles since EYE had mono in Kindergarten and they gave me all many needles. It was traumatic. They even gave me an AIDS test in my legs. A Child. EYE AM not convinced the shot isn’t more sensors. EYE also believe that it may be some type of slow-acting poison.
At this point, EYE don’t mind. if EYE die, EYE’ll meet God, My energy will live on and EYE will come back in some other form to save humanity. It’d be a hell of a lot better than my existence now. All this ‘’being the new Messiah’’ stuff is taxing. It’s lonely and frustrating because it never seems to come to a conclusion. If EYE died, EYE wouldn’t have to worry about living by this society’s standards. EYE wouldn’t have to fret over not making enough money. EYE wouldn’t stress out over not finding Love. EYE would know exactly what’s going on and be able to live how EYE need to.
The “nurses” said that it seemed like EYE’d calmed down some this afternoon and asked me to lead the others in the writing of haikus. EYE must’ve written about 20 of them. My favorite was:
God is the DJ
He controls the highs and lows.
Get on the dance floor.
EYE know how godly DJing a party can be. Right before the first time, EYE DJ’d a friend’s house party and EYE controlled the people. EYE made them dance. They waited on Me to direct them. There were holes in the walls afterwards. The “cops” that came and shut the party down and spoke to me had inkblots tatted on their hands. That’s how EYE knew they were agents. Not too far after, EYE ended up in an ‘’institution.’’
EYE spoke with my grandmother today. She informed me that the boarding house EYE was living in was deemed illegal by the ‘’police’’ that came and my landlord loaded all of my things into my car. She left it in my aunt’s driveway. Now, EYE don’t have anywhere to live. EYE read in the book of Job that satan told God that he wandered back and forth, to and fro on the Earth. That’s what they want Me to do. Wander all over the place.
My family’s playing a little too well though. My grandmother said that EYE AM not allowed in her house. My aunt, who lives alone, won’t allow Me to live in one of the rooms in there. My brother won’t let me live with him. My uncle said he would help me to find something, but he didn’t know of anywhere. My godparents won’t answer their phone. EYE have a little bit of money, so EYE guess EYE’ll hotel hop until EYE find something. When EYE was kicked out of My grandmother’s house, My brother told me to check The Wilderness for housing and EYE found the room EYE was renting just now.
EYE AM actually sleepy now. EYE think EYE’ve said enough for the day. hopefully, tomorrow EYE’ll get some better news.