Writers Are Superheroes
“When you play the game of life & the win ain’t in the bag, when your options is none and the pen is all you have…” – Jay-Z
Writing means everything to me and that’s because writing is who the fuck I am. When the world gives me every reason to just wither and die, writing is my super power. Everything the world gives me, whether it makes me angry, sad, happy or whatever else; I use it all as ink to my pen. Some call that talent; I call it super ability, which is why I rarely get along with people who don’t have it. Doesn’t mean I think I’m better than anyone with or without this super ability, it means I can’t fucking relate and those without it just have to understand they need to stay away from me.
Writers are assholes because we hear, feel & see everything as either backhanded or condescending, so we tend to project the same without hesitation. Everyone talks about love languages and shit but writers have our own language and it’s called Superhero. We’re the eyes and ears that general society doesn’t have; either by choice (which is stupidity) or because they’re blessed with some other useless ability that nobody is envious of.
Writers are idealists, futurists and we unearth shit in ways civilians can’t. Take the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, everyone see a cool cartoon; let me tell you what I see. First of all, these motherfuckers been teenagers since before I was a teenager and I’m 32 years old. Secondly, why do they have fucking masks on? They’re fucking turtles doing karate all around our community and I’m supposed to be concerned with their color coordination? You mean to tell me 7ft turtles doing Kung Fu isn’t special but since they have ninja masks on, now we talking? And don’t forget they’ll Russian leg sweep you before they eat you pizza; like excuse me?
You can’t sell writers bullshit, we know the prices & while the rest of the world may buy your particular brand of nonsense, writers write right thru it. In other words you derelicts, we don’t trust many people, if any people. Which serves as a gift and a curse but appreciating the gift keeps the curse from hindering us. Surely we want to have “normal” relationships with people but while we understand you in totality, most of you don’t have an inkling of what deranged, sick and twisted shit is going on in the head of a writer, even after we tell you because you just don’t have the ability to comprehend it. And while that may seem like I’m calling non-writers dumb, I’m not. I’m saying that we’re different and honestly I used to envy not having your naïve natures but as I grow older and become more self-aware, I wouldn’t trade this shit for the world.
While you hear Marlo saying word on The Wire, I’m thinking about the person who wrote it and how they felt understanding the shit they wrote will last forever. When I write, I do so without knowing who it will affect nor do I care how it affects them; I write as a reflection of things I’ve been dealt and how I’ve reconciled with them. I’m not a sarcastic person; I’m me and not “just” me as if being me is a simple matter. I write in the moment about how past things have affected my present, while I try to overcome said things to ensure I have a better future than both. I don’t stress today, I live for it, I seize it (as my Carpe Diem tattoo will attest to) but I am not a prisoner of today. I’ve come to grips that I won’t matter until after I’m dead and that’s not me fishing for validation or reassurance that I do; I know I matter because I matter to me. What I’m saying is that what most people are doing today won’t matter later, there’s no legacy in it; shit is disposable, garbage like even. What I do, what I say, how I think, how I feel and how/who I am ahead of now. People will read what I’ve written 20 years after I’m “gone” and be amazed that I was so in their time.
Writers are an engine of change; we get to voice the frustration of a generation thru humor. We take pain and turn it into a smile, similar to Jesus turning water to wine; we do & make you feel holy shit. The old adage, “If you want to hide the truth from someone, put it in a book” applies to why writers are so “mysterious” and to themselves because while everyone else believes being loud makes them powerful and right, writers know it’s all steaming bullshit. Don’t get it fucked up, I want to enjoy my life as much as humanly possible but people won’t get to truly enjoy me until it’s not humanly possible.
Men die, women die; writers don’t.